Another mask

Writing in a language that is not mine. It hurts less I guess. It puts me beyond myself. Or beyond something. Or just beyond. I cannot explain how is that every day I become more angry, more acid. And the pain just doesn't stop. I cannot explain. I cannot stand. I cannot turn around and see, cause everywhere I see it's just that way. Pain. pain. pain. Sorrow. Unhappiness. I cannot explain. I cannot stand. I cannot run nor hide. Yesterday I cried. I didn't win anything but a few minutes of relief, because I couldn't stop. It's not fair for anyone. ........i cannot stand it.