Disconnection

A disconnection is defined as breaking the connection of or between. A connection is a relationship in which a person , thing or idea is linked or associated with something else (just for clarifying the obviousness of dictionaries). So... Things are connected and disconnected. Even thoughts and feelings. And probably that's the cause of many discomforts. Perceptions that lead to thoughts. And these thoughts or mental representations lead to feelings. But the connection doesn't seem logical. Somehow I know that my feelings aren't...right. And that brings me to the recent past, when I was complaining (yet again) about my inhability to make a choice. To choose the people I like, or whom I feel attracted to.

An so on, this maze of connections and disconnections becomes even more twisted. When I thought that I got rid of the burden of what I call "evil feelings" or thoughts. some conversation, or situation, bring it back to the surface. And suddenly I look at my past...make comparisons, and let the grudge grow. And I cannot change my past, nor obtain another one.

So confusion ensues. And resentment.

'Til next one, even if no one reads. Next one probably won't have nothing to do with this one. Maybe will be related. We'll see.