Meaning.

Meaning as in sense. In the way that something has a "raison d'être". That's the idea of how we are raised. Everything, somehow, has a reason to be. Every thing that happen should follow that idea. You should behave yourself as a kid because bla bla bla bla. Cause-effect. Well I just have to say: all that crap is just that: crap. What to live for if you don't have hope? And if you have hope how long can it last before you fall? I really don't know. People crave for love, for a hapiness that society tells should be. Anyway I just find everything pointless...boring...and don't have the enthusiasm that maybe I had. Did I have it anyway? I'm afraid to said that I did have. Now, I don't know.