Crazyness

I don't know if that is well written. But it represents exactly why I am trying to say. Crazyness. I often joke about that I am crazy. Suddenly I thought "what if". What if I were crazy? Insane. Sometimes I wish that, because I think that I wouldn't have to deal with my problems, my issues, the fear and the anxiety. The past that doesn't let me go on, and the future which scares me.

It's amazing that I have such thoughts. Five years ago, I wasn't thinking too much. I was worried about the future, I was caring of the past, but mainly, living in the present time, the only time that exists and counts.

Now, I am still confused, in recovery I guess (and hope).

But still lost and confused.

See you.